The late Heath Ledger who got noticed in 1999 with the hit teen movie 'Ten things I hate about you' had it tough as he received movie offers which he felt will not advance his career and he refused them at a time when he was short of cash and apparently survived on instant noodles to sustain himself when he ran out of cash. He felt strongly that the roles he chooses now for the monetary gain will be doomsday and his patience eventually paid off when he received good movie roles like Brokeback mountain and Dark Knight.

The late Tupac Amaru Shakur strongly believed in himself and his ideals and refused to compromise on them so much so that I would say he died at a young age due to his unwillingness to compromise on his beliefs. There's a beautiful quote in one of my favourite 'Only God can Judge Me' song by Tupac which sums up his entire life which is 'I rather die like a man than live like a coward' He stayed true to this quote by living life on the edge and never held back his words and I truly respected him for staying true to his ideals.

These two men are some of the people whom I hold in high regard as they believed in something and never let go of them even when their ideals or beliefs were against their advancement but if they did not believe in themselves, I don't think they will have risen to such a great level.

Many people have doubted me. Many people have cast their reservations about the decision. Some people may be skeptical. Some people may not be down with my decision but all I can say is that I believe that the decision that I have undertaken was made with the strongest intention and I will stick to it through thick and thin. I have never felt strongly about an issue and this is the first issue that I have such strong feelings. I know that this decision is going to impact my life in one way or another but if the Godfather did not make the decision to enter into Mafia, I don't think he will have become the Godfather and realised his potential. I believe in what I'm doing and do not give a fuck about what people might say because they have to first respect my decision before I can bring myself to hear them out. As Tupac said, I rather die like a man than live like a coward.

When you are living in a room full of dirt and filth without cleaning it for a month or so and this does not include mopping the floor, you are bound to be in for a shock as my roomie and I decided to clean the room randomly and we were faced with massive amounts of dirt. The fan was dirty. The floor was dirty. The windows were dusty. The walls had small insects residing on the surface. It was basically a room nobody wants to stay but after a hour of sweeping and mopping, it feels DARN GOOD to let your feet touch the clean floor.

On the exam front, it has been madness as I had 3 papers in 3 days with the first of all papers-Computing. Nobody likes Computing. If you like computing, either you love it or you must be lying as I feel that it's a waste of my time and I do not mind taking 2 G.Es to make up for the stupid subject. My seniors who have taken the subject numerous times will rather take 2 G.Es because it's a stupid subject but fortunately, I had a senior friend to teach me and my friends and I completely understood the stupid User defined functions in a hour. The 40 something page was condensed in a hour lecture given by friend and with me practising the questions, I can safely say that I can clear the subject but I hope that i do not count my eggs too early or the chickens or whatever..

The 2nd paper was R.C and this paper was surprisingly OK as the questions were not very difficult but I made a mistake with the first question and I'm hoping that this does not cost me dearly. The third was another stupid subject-CE Management which I studied intensively with my friend over 2 days and covered the entire syllabus skipping a stupid chapter which our gamble paid off when it didnt come out.

A few words of advice- do not take multiple exams or back to back exams within a few days as it's exhausting and can fuck up your mind when you finish the last exam because you badly want to sleep after the paper or you will crack under pressure. I may sound profound or bullshitty but my situation will be an example to people who want to do heroic things to think twice unless it's your FINAL semester.

After my last paper, I caught the 2nd installment of Bourne trilogy. I had to force myself to watch the movie as the first 10mins was not intriguing and felt that it could not match up to Identity but I was so wrong when the car scenes came up and it was so engaging. The 2nd installment in my opinion was good and it's a pity that I caught onto Bourne very late as it's a cinema movie. I will be watching the last installment when I'm taking a break from studies.

On the soccer front, I can't describe what I'm feeling because a season which promised so much for Arsenal went up in smoke when they self desructed due to lack of mental stamina. However, I can't stand clowns like captain Gallas for being emotional, Eboue for being happy go lucky with his tackles and giving me a heart attack, Fabregas for not showing effort. The only person whom I respect is Walcott. He gives his best in the Arsenal shirt. The team have to raise their performance for next season.

The only thing which we possess is our mind and we need to have a mind of our own. We should never let anyone take control of our mind as that is what we have and what makes us unique. I believe that we have a mind for a reason. I'm zonking out. Goodnight, Singapore.

I'm pissed with Arsenal for failing to play catch up with Manchester United as they have lost a lot of points over the past few weeks. I'm pissed with Fabregas for his excessive recent showboating and immaturity which is costing the team as he's the man who makes the team tick. I'm pissed with Gallas for not leading by example and showing his emotions unneccessarily. I'm pissed with Arsenal for not having committed players who can carry the team on the shoulders and do wonders when called upon. Manchester have Rooney and Ronnie. Liverpool have Gerrard and Carragher. Chelsea have Terry and Drogba. Arsenal:>>>>>>>> I rest my case.

I'm pissed with myself for falling sick at the crucial time when I'm supposed to be fit and fighting to the finish line. I'm pissed with myself for not being able to complete the required chapters for today as my body seem to be ailing and my mind zonking out. I'm pissed with myself for being behind time. I'm pissed with myself for being addicted to Godfather again. I'm pissed with myself now that I'm wasting my time crafting this silly post.