I recently had dinner with my friends at Beach Road(The mee goreng is damn good and spicy as well) and the topic of my birthday came up. Well, you see. I will appreciate it if you could present me with an apple ipod, portugal jersery and a year supplies of hersheys cookies and cream for my imminient birthday. Back to the dinner topic. My friends asked me what do i plan to do for my 22nd(can't believe i'm that old) birthday. Megan was egging me to throw a party. I said i'm not intending not to celebrate it not because of the fact i have never really celebrated my birthday on a big scale after perhaps my 10th birthday. My last birthday was a quiet affiar at home. Why this pessimism? To put it simply, I think celebrating my birthday is a waste of time.
First of all, who is going to remember my birthday after it has passed? Secondly, most people don't give a fuck(I'm serious) about you after your birthday and the next time you might see them or see them treating you well or giving the million dollar smile if you celebrate your birthday is your next year birthday. Frankly, I don't blame them. Who should give a fuck about my birthday? I'm neither Brad Pitt nor Ethan Hawke(Those guys are my fav actors by the way) and I understand their reaction.
To me, a birthday is just another day. It's just adding another year to my age. That's not a good thing as I want to be 21 all my life(wishful thinking). I feel that I have not achieved anything or did anything to mankind that warrants me to celebrate my birthday. I can hear the sentimental uproar from my loyal fans and friends going like "You are special." Frankly, I thank those fellas for their concern but I feel that celebrating my birthday is really a waste of my time and most importantly your time.
I have done nothing except age and going through the dutiful educational process(Pri-Sec-JC-army-Uni). What have I done? Zilch.Nothing. I may be special to my friends or fans but I don't feel special. This entry is not to appeal to you or make you sympathise with me. I just want my fans and friends to realise that my birthday to me is just another day. Unless I become a Gandhi or a Bill Gates(I'm not trying to be unrealistic), I rather not celebrate my birthday.
That does not mean that i don't want you guys not to celebrate yr birthday or think that I consider your birthday a waste of time. I always feel happy that my friends celebrate their birthday and I feel happy when I see them happy. Their happiness is so contagious!!Don't ask me why this unusual double standards? It's just my character I guess!!What's my early birthday resolution? Two wishes..To be a human( treat oneself and others with respect) as I feel that humans including myself have degenerated and not to be sucked into lifestyle obsession(like badly wanting the next C.K boxers or Levis Jeans ). I don't want these clothes to define Venkat! That's one step closer to being a slave to these stuff. I would like to end off with a beautiful quote from one of Brad Pitt's movie, Fight CLub-'The things that you own might end up owning you' SImple but brutally true!!!
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